Go

"You cannot stay where you are and go with God." - Henry Blackaby

Mentally? Emotionally? Spiritually? Physically?

This is a thought I avoid. I don't want to be real with God, with you, with my family. But God is saying "Sarah, you cannot stay where you are and go where I want you to go." 

I really feel like He is saying that I need to stay where I am physically, but I need to be moving spiritually, mentally and emotionally. Great adventures around the world sound so much better and awesomer. But sometimes He doesn't work like that. He knows where we are and where we need to go. 

Where are you? Where does God want you to go? Are you going to go?

Vague

I just need to say that I'm hurt and tired of being hurt. 

I long for things I cannot have. Not now, maybe not ever. 

Prayer makes me EXTREMELY uncomfortable. 

Being vulnerable makes me tired and I don't like doing it.

I wish God would stop with this "already/not yet" business and change me immediately to what He wants me to be. 

I wish there was no struggle. 

I am more annoyed with myself now because this was all about me when there are much bigger things going on in the world. 

Sorry for the vague post. I needed to emotionally vomit. Hope that's ok with ya'll. If not, well, come back tomorrow. I'll have something happier up then.