Monday, July 21, 2008

God is so funny....

For the last several months (and really throughout my whole life), I've complained about God's silence concerning what I think are big life decisions. If I could pick how God communicated to me, I would have Him re-write the Bible as a "God's Plan for Sarah's Life" book. Not as applicable to anyone else, but hey...it would work for me.

God is a lot bigger than what I think He should be, though. And it both awes and cracks me up at the same time.

On Friday I was unofficially offered a permanent position at the place I'm temping. It is a substantial increase in pay and it has benefits. And for a gal with no insurance it sounds really great! Not five minutes after this conversation, I got in my car to go home and started praying about it. And as soon as I verbalized all the really great things that could happen if I took this job, I distinctly heard the Lord say to me, "Don't you trust Me?" To which I had to respond, "Um...no. Do You know me?"

After all these months of being (seemingly) quiet about my future, He responds to one idea with "Trust Me - I've got it taken care of."

"But God...I don't have insurance. What if something happens to me?"

"Trust Me."

"God, I could pay off my debts so much quicker. And You don't want me to have debt."

"Trust Me."

"God, I'd be able to vanpool for a minimal fee, thus saving mileage and gas. And gas is out the butt right now."

"Trust Me."

I realized (not so much in the moment, but later) that God talked to me. As much as I've said/complained lately about how little He's telling me, there He still is, giving me direction. He's just being choosy about what He says. I think I just want a God who is as verbose as I am (a scary thought!).

It's encouraging to know, however, that when I ask for direction, whether or not I hear a yes, He won't steer me in the wrong direction. Unless I disobey He won't let me do something that isn't inside His big picture plan. And right now I just have to trust Him to continue taking care of that. Insurance or not.

Which leads into the second funny/God-thing that happened today, in fact.

I was reading a blog this morning and the author was talking about how often he wishes God would speak audibly and give us very specific directions as to what He wants us to do (enter my interest). It went on to say that if God gave us said specific directions, like a map, how much more likely we would be to tell God "Hasta!" and rely solely on our little Google map and directions, rather than Him.

WHAM! Like a ton o' bricks! I would do that without a second look back. "Thanks God for the map! I got this taken care of! See ya later!" And God, being God, knows this and doesn't even want to give me that opportunity. Of which (some days) I am grateful. Even in His silence, He's still there, helping me learn to trust, encouraging me to keep listening. That's a good God, a good Abba.

Let's hope that since I know this, maybe I'll give Him a break from my whining. Maybe... =)

**Update**
Almost as soon as I was finished writing this post, my boss called me into her office to "officially" offer me the position. Could God be testing me? Tune in to find out. =)

5 comments:

TenaciousT said...

ha. i love it.
keep listenin' sista

Michael Gilley said...

This brings reminiscence of Psalm 27 to mind.

I believe that I shall see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD!

JD & Jen said...

earlier in psalm 27, david is talking about going to God's house and spending time with Him; he is seeking His face constantly.

sound familiar? a little like matthew 6:33?

i thought it was interesting. that's something i've really been struggling with lately myself. trusting God is so hard to do when you see others around you succeeding and thriving. but Jesus said to not worry about anything. God doesn't even let a sparrow fall or a flower go naked. and yet we think our problems are so important.

my dad reminded me of the severity of the things i tend to complain about. when our apartment flooded, he simply reminded me of the thousands of farmers in iowa who had lost millions of dollars worth of crops. all that happened to us was that our carpet got wet. that was a real perspective giver.

anyway, the point of all that was this: God has everything under control, our problems aren't so big that He can't solve them, and we should constantly seek to be in His presence.

gilley, do they primarily use the nrsv out there? you've been quoting it a lot. just curious.

Michael Gilley said...

Hey JD,

Primarily we use the NRSV and RSV since they tend to take turns on getting close to the Greek/Hebrew but in almost every case the Greek/Hebrew needs to be used in order to explain the renderings. Simply put, there's no substitute for the original languages. I'm with the Eastern Orthodox there.

Surprisingly enough, Craig Evans was blasting the NIV a couple of weeks ago. He said it was good for little kids who don't know the difference but "we" needed to grow up. :-) He primarily used the RSV and the Greek/Hebrew/Vulgate.

JD & Jen said...

i totally agree with the original languages thing. i tell people all the time when they ask which translation is better that the best translation is the original. but, as we've discussed elsewhere, those options won't be available to me for at least a while.

we use the nasb primarily, though i've noticed that the education professors use the niv. i personally have been reading the hcsb lately, but mostly because its a little smoother than the nasb (it sure does get tiring to read after a while if you don't really have to) and most sbc literature now-a-days is printed in that translation. i assume it's ok to use since one of our professors was a translator for it.

overall, i probably would still prefer the nasb, but mostly because that's what i'm most used to. although i have been reading some from the nrsv and like it also.