I love figures of speech (FIG's, if you will). And this one is my new favorite expression. Mostly because I feel like I am doing just that. Although, in doing so, I'm metaphorically a horse. Which may or may not be a great thing...
At any rate....
Have you ever been in a place where you feel...purposeless? I don't even know if that's a real word, but that's how I feel.
I file.
I play online.
I go to bed.
I file.
I play online.
I go to bed.
Over and over and over and over and over......
I complain about not having time that's "my own", but honestly, I don't know what I'd do if I had that time. I have nothing to work on. No papers to write, nothing to prepare for, no agenda to keep.
So, I live "chomping at the bit", pining for a project or a purpose. (That was lot of 'p's...) I read tons of books with nowhere to file that information. And if I write papers without a class behind it, I just look like a dork.
And it wouldn't be so bad if I hadn't already been feeling this for over a year now.
God, don't You have a plan? Isn't there something I could be doing? If there is, can You please show me? Cause I'm tired of resting. I'm ready to rock the casbah. Let's kick this pig!
