I doubt the validity of my faith.
I doubt the historicity of Biblical texts.
I doubt the inerrancy of the Bible.
I doubt that my prayers get heard.
I doubt that God loves me the way He says He does.
I doubt that life will one day be ok.
I doubt that God's love is never-ceasing.
I don't want to doubt. Doubt Him, doubt others, doubt myself. But I do. And some days I feel helpless to stop it.
Does this make me less of a Christian? Does it mean that God is pissed because of me and my distrust? Often that feels true. But in spite of my doubt and my questions and my antagonism, God still remains true and I just need to hold onto that.
But some days it's just harder to believe.