I long for things I cannot have. Not now, maybe not ever.
Prayer makes me EXTREMELY uncomfortable.
Being vulnerable makes me tired and I don't like doing it.
I wish God would stop with this "already/not yet" business and change me immediately to what He wants me to be.
I wish there was no struggle.
I am more annoyed with myself now because this was all about me when there are much bigger things going on in the world.
Sorry for the vague post. I needed to emotionally vomit. Hope that's ok with ya'll. If not, well, come back tomorrow. I'll have something happier up then.